All the words I have to be able to describe what I'm feeling right now are too many. I feel all jumbled. I feel contradictory. I feel solid, yet vague. I don't miss who I used to be, because I don't remember who I used to be. But, I just want to say thank you for being my past, even if your not going to be in my future. You are all the reason I am who I am today. It's just that time has put a thin wall between us, I can't remember how we used to connect. Something is telling me to move forward right now, it's like the universe is showing me where to go and is asking me to let the past be. All I want to do is pick up pieces and hug them to my chest. Visit one last time. Nostalgic. I just want to have more adventures, I'm so god damn excited about only being a term out from year 12. Time is flying. It's fast, it's exciting, it's hard to grasp. I want to savour it all. Everything is tense, short lived, dramatic. Small minds are starting to choke me. I want to scream at them to expand, grow. Stop judging. Let it be. Happiness is all that matters. Look fear in the eye, don't let it stop you.
I feel so alive.
It's such a raw emotion.
This wasn't supposed to be this long.
Time does fly - much too quickly for me. I wish it'd stop for awhile.
ReplyDeleteI hope everything is going as well as possible on your end. It's already autumn here and I'm still pining for summer.
I agree with the above comment, time really does fly, but you just have to get on and make the most of it right? Hope you're okay sweet :)
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I loove this, I really really do. All the quotes are amazing and what you wrote really touched me. Very beautiful and true, I understand where you are coming from!
ReplyDeleteOhhhh this was really touching and raw and so utterly honest. I'm moved. I've missed reading your blog and I'm glad you're still here. Cheers.
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