Thursday, April 8


I'm scared of 
a new school
growing up
leaving school
choosing a career
being uncertain
being alone
being with someone 
of molly never coming home
grand-dad dying
not having friends

but they are just fears...aren't they? Fears are never as bad as they seem. I wish I could stop being so fucking confused, up until a couple of weeks ago I knew exactly what I wanted to do, but now, not a chance. And quite honestly I hate that, the uncertainty, because at the moment thats what my life is made up of, what happened to adults knowing everything, the security blanket? I wish things could go back to being just black and white, right and wrong, not all this good with the bad and bad with the good.


  1. That is the uncertainty of the future, and everyone goes through it.
    You'll make it, I swear.

  2. Ah - it is hard to not be afraid isn't it? Uncertainty is your worst enemy. Don't think too much about the future. Think about today, tomorrow, and maybe the weekend at most, because if you think beyond that, there is very little you can control. But that's okay, isn't it? What goes will go, and you will conquer it no matter what!


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